Diary of a happy pregnant woman

Here is little entry I made a while back when I found out I was pregnant.  It's kind of fun to read now; for me at least!

1/21/11

Since I'm not able to share my news at this time, I thought it would be fun to write it here and publish it in a couple months!

test #1

test #2 can you see it?!!

On Monday (1/17) night I ran over to Walgreens to get some early result tests cause, you know, that's what I do these days... every month... wasting all kinds of money!

I was sure the test would be negative because I've been feeling my monthly PMS signs.  They are the same as usual.  Soreness...  the headaches... and the moodiness... check check check!  I took the test and it was, in fact, negative.  Nothing I'm not used to lately.  I decided to gear myself up for another month...

A little later I checked it again and could see the faintest line.  It looked just like a test I had taken a couple months back that was, in fact, negative.  Just in case, I would test in the morning...

The next morning (1/18) I re-tested again as soon as I could and got the same super light line, only even lighter this time.  Hmmm  

After running to the dollar store later that day, I took 2 more tests, both super light line.  I think I'm beginning to see a pattern here!  I showed Scott, and he was still skeptical, and making fun of me for taking 4 tests in two days!

Let's be honest, at this point I'm excited!!  In fact, it's all I can think about!

The next morning (1/19), I took another dollar store test and got my darkest super light line yet!  Although I didn't expect it, I was starting to feel nauseous as well.  To top it off that night I took my third expensive early result test (that makes 6 total) and I got a nice dark line-finally!  Hallelujah!  I knew for sure at that moment that it was real!

So far with this pregnancy:

I have felt nauseous in the evenings, when I eat certain foods, and in the mornings and I'm only 4 weeks along... this is unusual as I've never felt sick until 6 weeks

I've been asked if I'm pregnant and had to lie (I haven't even told my mom yet!) plus it's easy to lie when I don't quite believe it myself!

I had an aversion to carmelitos which are one of my favorite desserts

I've been more tired than normal (another symptom I don't usually have)

Sign of things to come?

Trying for a baby with no success has been one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with.  I think what was really starting to get to me is that I thought maybe I couldn't have any more children.  In the past, with all 3 pregnancies I've had we got pregnant the first month or two, so going months longer than that seemed like an eternity.  I feel like a whiner to even say this stuff because of what other people go through, but I think for the first time I was able to understand what those women are going through.  There were times I was nearing depression.  I think as mothers our greatest desire is to have children, so when you feel that is taken away from you, it tears at your heart.

I feel blessed that we have been given this amazing gift.  Bring on the morning sickness!  Bring on the stretch marks!  Bring on the toilet stops!

Please forgive me if I lie to your face and tell you I'm not pregnant in the next couple months, but you shouldn't be asking a woman if she's pregnant anyways!  I'm trying to hold out as long as I can to tell people because we are not going to find out the sex of the baby.