Here is little entry I made a while back when I found out I was pregnant. It's kind of fun to read now; for me at least!
1/21/11
1/21/11
Since I'm not able to share my news at this time, I thought it would be fun to write it here and publish it in a couple months!
test #1
test #2 can you see it?!!
I was sure the test would be negative because I've been feeling my monthly PMS signs. They are the same as usual. Soreness... the headaches... and the moodiness... check check check! I took the test and it was, in fact, negative. Nothing I'm not used to lately. I decided to gear myself up for another month...
A little later I checked it again and could see the faintest line. It looked just like a test I had taken a couple months back that was, in fact, negative. Just in case, I would test in the morning...
The next morning (1/18) I re-tested again as soon as I could and got the same super light line, only even lighter this time. Hmmm
After running to the dollar store later that day, I took 2 more tests, both super light line. I think I'm beginning to see a pattern here! I showed Scott, and he was still skeptical, and making fun of me for taking 4 tests in two days!
Let's be honest, at this point I'm excited!! In fact, it's all I can think about!
The next morning (1/19), I took another dollar store test and got my darkest super light line yet! Although I didn't expect it, I was starting to feel nauseous as well. To top it off that night I took my third expensive early result test (that makes 6 total) and I got a nice dark line-finally! Hallelujah! I knew for sure at that moment that it was real!
So far with this pregnancy:
I have felt nauseous in the evenings, when I eat certain foods, and in the mornings and I'm only 4 weeks along... this is unusual as I've never felt sick until 6 weeks
I've been asked if I'm pregnant and had to lie (I haven't even told my mom yet!) plus it's easy to lie when I don't quite believe it myself!
I had an aversion to carmelitos which are one of my favorite desserts
I've been more tired than normal (another symptom I don't usually have)
Sign of things to come?
Trying for a baby with no success has been one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with. I think what was really starting to get to me is that I thought maybe I couldn't have any more children. In the past, with all 3 pregnancies I've had we got pregnant the first month or two, so going months longer than that seemed like an eternity. I feel like a whiner to even say this stuff because of what other people go through, but I think for the first time I was able to understand what those women are going through. There were times I was nearing depression. I think as mothers our greatest desire is to have children, so when you feel that is taken away from you, it tears at your heart.
I feel blessed that we have been given this amazing gift. Bring on the morning sickness! Bring on the stretch marks! Bring on the toilet stops!
Please forgive me if I lie to your face and tell you I'm not pregnant in the next couple months, but you shouldn't be asking a woman if she's pregnant anyways! I'm trying to hold out as long as I can to tell people because we are not going to find out the sex of the baby.
